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New Post in a long while

It's been a while since I've written in my blog, but I wanted to get one more entry in before the new year. A lot has changed in my life since I last wrote. I am about 3/4 of the way through getting the rough draft done of Belle Starr. I have fallen off the the weight wagon, but I have even more incentive to get back on because I was proposed to Christmas Day by my boyfriend, now fiance. 
I never ever wanted to become one of those girls. "I gotta lose weight before the wedding!" It's a hard line to walk because, yes of course I want to feel and look good on my wedding day. But I don't want to do it for anyone else but me. Is that possible now that two people are becoming one, I don't know, entity together? It's not just about him or just about me anymore, it's US. That's a concept I've still got to get used to.   
We're looking at houses and I start my job at the college at the end of January, so I think 2011 is going to be a great year …

What day is this?

I don't know what day this is diet wise, because I admit I've totally fallen off the diet wagon when it comes to excercize: I haven't excercized in about four days, and I can totally feel the effects of it, it really makes me feel different. I feel slower, less flexible and more sluggish. I've gotta get back on that bike. The good news is that I haven't fallen off the writing wagon, and that's really important. I'm writing an average of 2,000 words a day, although most of the time its more than that, and sometimes up to 3500 or more. The novel I chose to work with for a month is my Belle Starr novel, and I'm learning a lot about what its like to live with one main character, and its different than writing different things on different days. Although a bit of the other characters that I'm not working on will drift up to me as I go through my daily routine--they'll comment on something I think, say or feel and I'll have to write that down, so …

NANOWRIMO

Of course, writers and literary people know that today is NANOWRIMO, and I don't need to really expand on that, google it if you don't know. The goal, essentially is to write a novel in a month, again, following the Stephen King Model, who writes that you can indeed finish a novel in a month. I read something tonight that I think is particularly relevant:
Even though the goal is 50,000 words, it's important to remember that writing is a craft, an art form, and we'd do well to remember that. 
I've been doing really well with my 3500 words a day (...the excercize...um...let's just say it's a LONG way to San Francisco. I'm sure I'll get there, eventually...) for the past 3 days, no reason not to continue. My novel? Well I think it's going to be really cool, I'm really excited about it, but keeping it a secret. For now...

Time to Start Showing Results!

Today's report is that I'm pretty much on track with both writing and excercizing. I'm having girl issues at the moment, so I rode the bike for 1/2 hour yesterday and 25 minutes today. I'm doing so much better at recovering writing a certain amount of words per day, here is a sample of Wednesday's work. wednesday is poetry. Today's poetry theme was ophelia.



You melted to him a small rustle of wings
In a dream I shall feel through splendid cities white ophelia floating; her sweet madness floats very slowly; covered with the! star which is melting away!
In the wine of daylight dark lilacs. - green casket flecked with gold, stars spring in the moss. In a slumbering alder in each soft corner. - sighing around her and the gaudy lotus tree.
You melted to him, a small rustle of wings snow of rose petals at times she rouses the great dreaming swan flower-flesh perfumed;
I no longer felt myself, i have seen maelstroms eternal, stronger than alcohol lightnings and the yellow-blue awa…

Day 14

Twenty miles last week, 15 this week--this is on average because I think I mentioned that the mile/speed/calorie counter doesn't work. In total since I've started 65 miles from Ely to San Franscisco. Today I work on my Storyville novel, long overdue for 3500 words.

Day 8

Ever since I started the bike my body is looking better and better, and although I've got a long way to go, figuratively and literally, I'm beginning to look and feel better about my progress. The only problem is, the last time I wrote was Monday and it is now Saturday and now I'm going to have to write furiously to keep up to the weight I lost. When I first began this diet, it was the other way around: I wrote a lot to help distract me from feeling hungry, and now I slacked off with that (bad writer, no cookie!) and have a lot of catching up to do. 
I did 10 miles on the bike yesterday so so far I've ridden 30 miles in three days. That really doesn't seem very far at all. The destination I've picked is San Francisco. It's about 8 hours or so from here. Carson City/Reno is about 5 hours, and I remember when we went to Lake Tahoe (first time for both of us) and Zepher's Cove at sunset it was near the beginning of our relationship and we walked on the beac…

Day 6-the stephen king diet, lol!

Finally, I can see results on the scale, and I almost cried, I was so happy! I have lost 3 pounds! I can see that's about normal for a week's worth of diet/excercize, I just wish I would lose more faster. I guess a lot people wish that, but still it's something, it's a success and even though I'm not at the place that I wish I was, it's still progress.
And speaking of progress, for the last 2 days I've let the writing slide by so I was hoping to get back on track with that today.
I also started incorporating something in my routine that I think kind of goes with the theme of using writing and everything as a backdrop to this diet-weight loss plan. In one of Stephen King's newest collections, 'Just After Sunset', he writes a story I think is simply titled 'Excercize Bike', where a man, in an attempt to lose weight after his doctor tells him his cholesterol is too high, buys and uses an excercize bike. This being a Stephen King story, you kn…

Day 3 (written on Day 4)

I feel better and my clothes already seem to fit better, even though its only been a couple of days and according to the scale i haven't lost any weight at all, so I'm wondering how much of dieting is really psychological, how much of dieting is really in your head. It's hard to want to stick with it when you push yourself and go hungry and do everything you're supposed to do and don't see any result physically but I physically feel better, so what's going on? 
Day 2 and 3's word count was 1,000 words each. Again, with pushing myself to do it. All the writing mentors I've met with, on the page and in real life, have always said 'Just show up at the page and do it'. Just show up at the page. that's what I've been doing and it seems to be working too, to an extent although I'm not writing the 3000 words a day I want to be writing. sometimes I have to push myself for just a couple hundred words, but it seems to be about pushing blocks ou…

Day Two--Stream of Consciousness Ramble

It’s just the first day but I already feel remarkably lighter and different. I remember what I read about diets like these and how they’re called crash diets for a reason. But I do feel different, and I just hope that I can keep this going for the next 13 days. I really want to see what I look like after I lose 20 pounds. I’m shrinking my stomach. I feel almost religious and like I'm undertaking something holy.  I want the body back that I remember. I look in the mirror and I want to cry. I never thought I’d ever let things get this bad. But I have seriously packed on the pound.  Right now I’m staving off hunger by drinking water. I’m feeling ‘empty’ but not lightheaded. I think when you start feeling hungry it means you’re burning up your body fat. Losing 60 pounds. 3500 words. Yeah that part is the tricky part, way more challenging than the staving off of hunger. That part is challenging, the keeping hunger away part, but the writing of the 3500 words seems like a huge, excuse m…

First Post Day One

I never wanted to be one of those girls who obsesses about calories or tries to live up to some impossible standard projected by magazines, movies and TV. But today I'm starting a diet, because I need to, and I thought if I did it in a different way, in a way that fed my mind and heart as well as helped my body become more healthy, then I should go for it. This is a documentation of my experience, and I don't know if anyone will read it, but that's okay. It's for me. 
The diet that I'm following is a variation on the Sacred Heart diet, where you eat a specially prepared soup for 1-2 weeks (I'm going for 2). Yes, I realize it's a crash diet, yes, I've heard all the negative things about both the Sacred Heart/Cabbage Soup diet as well as the dangers of crash dieting. But as a calorie reduction diet, the goal is to lose up to 10 pounds in one week. Supposedly this works, I'm going to try it and see.
I am currently about 60 pounds overweight at 180 pounds…